perception is reality
well
the reality you share
in public
you
smile
laugh
are friendly
caring
behind closed doors
you
control
manipulate
berate
demand
once out again
you are a proud peacock
while your family sits on the side
cringing at every approving glance
knowing the truth behind that face
seeing the evil within your soul.
you are not
honorable
or
repeatable
all you are is
fake.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Saturday, June 25, 2011
unsure
we are taught to:
think for ourselves
forge our own paths
map out our destiny
except...
sometimes...
family does not agree
they're needs trump our own.
our voice is
quieted
muffled
silenced
until
we are unable to think for ourselves
then, we are their pawn
waiting to find which direction to move in.
what kind of life is that?
think for ourselves
forge our own paths
map out our destiny
except...
sometimes...
family does not agree
they're needs trump our own.
our voice is
quieted
muffled
silenced
until
we are unable to think for ourselves
then, we are their pawn
waiting to find which direction to move in.
what kind of life is that?
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
wondering
why
can't you find your strength?
why
won't you think for yourself?
why
do they refuse to let you go?
why
is it impossible for you to leave?
why
can only the youngest ones see
are they the only ones with eyes
where did they learn acceptance?
why
is everyone so close minded?
why
are you scared?
why
are you so scared?
why
are you so scared?
what do you think will happen?
can't you find your strength?
why
won't you think for yourself?
why
do they refuse to let you go?
why
is it impossible for you to leave?
why
can only the youngest ones see
are they the only ones with eyes
where did they learn acceptance?
why
is everyone so close minded?
why
are you scared?
why
are you so scared?
why
are you so scared?
what do you think will happen?
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
calm
settling in
back to normal
only not-
really
questions loom
feelings the same
back to normal-
only not.
is this normal?
what is normal?
change
acceptance
approval
where are you?
back to normal
only not-
really
questions loom
feelings the same
back to normal-
only not.
is this normal?
what is normal?
change
acceptance
approval
where are you?
Saturday, June 11, 2011
control
stomach tense
mind races
hands shake
when will this get better?
stop mind.
stop.
stop.
stop.
why won't you listen to me?
I need control.
There is no control.
Need, control
to stop the mind
from traveling down
the dark alleys--
you never come back from.
mind races
hands shake
when will this get better?
stop mind.
stop.
stop.
stop.
why won't you listen to me?
I need control.
There is no control.
Need, control
to stop the mind
from traveling down
the dark alleys--
you never come back from.
Friday, June 10, 2011
restless
minutes refuse to pass.
they drag themselves out
until every painful second
has had its fair share.
they are
taunting
mocking
looking distastefully
as if to say:
we're doing this on purpose.
they drag themselves out
until every painful second
has had its fair share.
they are
taunting
mocking
looking distastefully
as if to say:
we're doing this on purpose.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
elated
Joy fill me
and
wants to burst out.
one hundred twenty seconds.
a mere
one hundred twenty seconds.
To calm my restless nerves.
To hear your voice.
one hundred twenty seconds
is all it took.
and
wants to burst out.
one hundred twenty seconds.
a mere
one hundred twenty seconds.
To calm my restless nerves.
To hear your voice.
one hundred twenty seconds
is all it took.
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
disconnected
in the age of communication on every device known. there is a strange sound of silence.
nothing. no sounds. no words. nothing.
we hear from people all day long for the most trivial details of their lives. we read information about people's lives that we do not care about.
it's in front of us all the time. all the time. all the time.
except when it's not.
then the silence is deafening.
nothing. no sounds. no words. nothing.
we hear from people all day long for the most trivial details of their lives. we read information about people's lives that we do not care about.
it's in front of us all the time. all the time. all the time.
except when it's not.
then the silence is deafening.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
relief
Relief washes over me.
The elephant standing on my chest is gone.
There is nothing left to do except wait.
I have no control anymore.
It all rests on your shoulders.
You are carrying the hopes of two people.
Try not to get weighed down by the enormity that stands before you.
You must be strong as you travel on this journey.
Because, I am strong for you while I am waiting.
The elephant standing on my chest is gone.
There is nothing left to do except wait.
I have no control anymore.
It all rests on your shoulders.
You are carrying the hopes of two people.
Try not to get weighed down by the enormity that stands before you.
You must be strong as you travel on this journey.
Because, I am strong for you while I am waiting.
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